11/30/12

Well between this blog and twitter I will never get my English project done. I am entirely to entertained sharing my opinions of the wonderful world I live. Entirely disenchanted am I with the high school dating scene. I really am overly exhausted by the idea of having someone break my heart again. So now unless someone is really specail I refuse to date. I am of a decent age and have only ever had three boyfriends and with all but one I dated them for a long amount of time.
So rather than just have my heart broken again. I have decided that no one is really going to be missing out on my dating. No one in the world has ever bothered to make me feel special. Therefore I must just be one of those girls who just doesn't have a real active high school social life.
All my life my parents have told me of their glory days in high school. That is what I wanted. To have a boyfriend and friends who went out on the weekends, but no. I have always had the friends that hang out with other people on the weekend and a boyfriend who is constantly making me choose what to talk about. So instead of being stuck with that I am now doomed to singledom. I know the lecture of how no woman needs a man. I know I don't need one. I want to feel wanted. Everyone likes feeling wanted.
For some reason, when I blog I pour my heart and soul into it. I realize that no one is probably reading this, but part of me hopes someone out there is. That my life doesn't feel completly pointless. If this blog let's one girl or guy know that they aren't alone with having these feelings then I would be overjoyed. The chances of the happening are like one in a million though. I am just some girl trying to figure things out in a world that doesn't make any sense.
If you have comments or questions email me at silenceinbeauty@gmail.com. Thanks for your time log on for the next installment of my ever so interesting life soon.

An update

I am sorry to inform you, but I will no longer be adding to this blog regularly. I have had a stroke of genius. My genius has lead me in a new direction. I am gonna make another music blog because you ( my faithful audience) prefer that type of blog from me. So my blog will be my playlist on life or something along those lines. I might keep updating this blog. I'm just not sure yet.

Sad Face

Well, I am really disappointed. I have made a new mistake. I should never have broken up with my exboyfriend. He is a wonderful guy. He didn't deserve to be treated like that. It's all I can think about anymore. I really need to tell him how I feel, but I don't know how. He'll reject me or at least he should. I do not deserve a second chance. I hurt him in the most unimaginable way. I broke up with him and it broke his heart. He hasn't moved on, but I just know that I don't deserve him. I never did deserve him. It brings the pin prick of tears to my eyes. I'm sorry that this part of the blog was all mopey.
I want nothing more than to find love like my grandparents did. My grandparents have this amazing lovestory that starts with my grandma writing letters to my grandpa in the service. Their lovestory has continued for more than 50 years now. My exboyfriend gave me hope that-that type of love still existed. I wish I had been more intelligent. I wish that I could have him back.
If you could wish for anyone to be back in your life who would you wish for? I know who I would wish for. It is an easy question for me to answer, but it may not be as easy for everyone else.
I would love to know what ya'll want to me to talk about on this blog. You guys are welcome to email me at silenceinbeauty@gmail.com

Update: on books

I have read the book The Immortal Rules by Julie Kagawa. It was definately one of the best books I've read in a really really long time. Of course, this is a vampire book, but with a wonderfully interesting twist. It takes place in the future. In the future the humans are blood cattle. This is a fantastic book. Everyone who loves romance and adventure and fantasy should love this book. I hope you guys read it and share your opinions.

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Crazy stuff

This week has been crazy. I am looking forward to so many things, like the election. I am personally an independent person. I don't like being tied to either party. I mean, I respect all people's opinions on the politics.
I have been doing on a lot of reading recently. I read when I need to isolate myself. I only need to isolate myself when I start to really freaking stress.
So then there is school. School is really stressful right now I don't understand anything going on in two of my classes. It's getting ready to make me have an emotional breakdown.
I hope things get better. I mean things can only go up from here. So I'll try to keep my head up. I'm sure this blog is really boring, but I'm not exactly sure what to blog about. I'll blog again soon with something more interesting to say.