IT'S BEEN FOREVER!

Well, it has been forever since I have posted anything on this blog. Sorry, if read it and I have left you without an update. I've just been busy. Good news though! I am now on summer vacation. This means that I can post more often.
So what's new in my life? A lot actually. I was just accepted into a program that will pay for me to take a trip in August, which is really exciting. Saturday is my birthday. I don't really care either way though. I never do anything special on my birthday.
Last weekend on the other hand, was an adventure. I spent the whole weekend working on ATVs with my dad and a friend. The friend will be called Toothless Karl. Toothless Karl is 28 year old who lost his teeth in a really stupid accident.
Last weekend was awesome. After working all of Friday and Saturday to fix the ATVs, we got to ride for the majority of he day Sunday. The weather was perfect. After riding, I had to be somewhere so I got to ride the Harley. So last weekend was one of the best weekends ever. Maybe even in the top ten.
This weekend on the other hand has been weird. On Saturday, I went for a five mile walk because I was bored. Yesterday, I felt like walking. I walked to the next town over. So today, I have decided to rest my feet.

Now, I'm not one to get to serious and traditional all to often, but here it goes. Today is Memorial Day. This is a day of rememberance. On this day, we should all appreciate those who fought and died for our country. Without these wonderful service members, we wouldn't have the freedoms that we possess. We wouldn't be able to speak freely or practice our religions freely in the United States.
Thanks to these members, I'm allowed to go to school and choose what I want to be when I grow up. Don't take your rights for granted. People lost relatives and loved ones so that we can express any thought that comes to our minds.
Thank a veteran and honor the fallen.

I'm out.

Super Bowl Weekend

Well, on Sunday, game day, I will be going to my first super bowl party. This is an exciting thing because, in case you haven't noticed, I am a rather backward individual who is really shy. Anyway, back to the task at hand. How am I preparing myself for the wonderful event that is amazing a super bowl party.
As anyone who isn't living under a rock would know that the Baltimore Raven and the San Franisco 49er's. I am looking foreward to the game not necessarily because of the actual football, but I get to hamg out with some awesome people. If this is all so wonderful and typically American then why is she blogging about it, you maybe asking. I'll tell you why, my ever so awesome reader. I had my wisdom teeth removed thursday.
This makes me very sad. My face is really sore and I don't want to take the pain medicine because I don't like feeling out of control. So this leaves me in a dilema, pain or comfort? Pain it is. I talking is a lot of work, but I am trying my best to keep things normal. The part of our society that I dislike is that everyone has been making fun of how swollen my face is.
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I'm going to do something weird and give you a summary of my weeek. So let's start with Sunday. Sunday was awesome. I hung out with this awesome guy who saved my butt when he was playing ping-pong with me on my team. His name is going to be Broseph. To say the least, I have a crush on Broseph. He is sweet, kind and good with kids. After ping-pong, we played uno. In the game of uno Broseph and I kept picking on each other. Then we played catch-phrase. After that sadly since it was a school night, I had to go home.
Monday was exhausting. The every so interesting lifeless blur that is high school fluttered past me easily. I had been texting an ex-boyfriend. He pretty much told me I was his last resort. Yeah, talk about being a flirt. He was kinda acting like an ass, but the thing is I fell for it. I agreed to go out with him. Why you ask? Because some how I felt lonely and like nobody else wanted me. I missed what he and I had had for those short seven and a half months. Too bad and too late, I realized fter only one day, he wasn't the same boy and I am definately not the same girl. The next day which was tuesday, he didn't say crap to me at school. That is when I realized he wasn't the right one. When I got home tuesday, I waited for him to text me so that we could say this wasn't going to work.
Luckily, he was thinking the same thing as I was. So we ended it and I was cool with it. He then proceeded to stop talking to me. So much for "being friends," I hate when people say that, but don't mean it. I just think that if he wasn't able to talk to me as a friend he should at least have the balls to say it. I kind of soulnd like a total snob right now, but the thing is I only respect those who respect me. I don't appreciate things being sugar coated. If something isn't right, then tell me. Is that so hard to find in the world?
Wenesday, I had a completely normal average day. There is guy at school who is an eagle scout, he has a huge crush on me. I have told him many times that I don't like him and never will. He is judgmental and would judge my parents. If a man can't love my parents even though they aren't the greatest, then I can't love him. It's that simple. The most important  require meant I have for a guy is that he has to be approved by my dad. There are no exceptions to this rule. After school on wenesday, I walk to the elementary to read to third graders.
Thursday, the day I experienced fear. I have a huge fear of the dentist. At 12:30 on thursday, my mom came and picked me up. I ate a light lunch then we went to the dentist office. My mom and I have always had a complicated relationship. Anyway, at the entist Dr. Evil pulled all my wisdom teeth. I was scared. The whole experience was really really weird. Late thursday night, I ended up puking. I felt so bad, but my my dad is a wonderful man. I was so scared and crying, but he still held my hair as I vomitted. This probably doesn't mean anything to most people, but to me its a big deal. My dad isn't the greatest man in the world by our society's standards. He has been in and out of jail a lot in my life. He isn't an emotional man. That is why him holding my hair while I puked was a big deal. I love my dad and mom so much. I am one of the few teenagers that don't have fights with their parents really.
Friday, I had to stay home from school because the dentist told me it wasn't safe to go to school. So I stayed home on dentist orders. I watched the news and was being lazy. Then I watched "Days of Our Lives" with my mom. When I was younger, she and I would always sit down and watch "Passions", but as many know that soap opera was canceled. Now whenever, I am home sick or when I am on break, she and I sit down at one o'clock and watch the show. After passions, I went and played with my puppy who is adorable.
Here we are on Saturday, I will proceed to no longer bore the few people that do read this. So if you have read this, thank you so much. I turning a topic over in my head for the next blog, but I am not so sure about it yet. So please comment if you have ideas!!!!!! or email me at silenceinbeauty@gmail.com

Books Again!!! An Update!

I am simple going to list the books that I have read recently. As I list them in an easy to follow outline form, I will also share my opinions on the book.

• Memoirs of a teenage Amnesiac by Gabrielle Zevin
• Is an amazing heart-warming story. You fall in love with the characters in this book. As the plot twist and turns your heart-throbs. I loved this book. It was amazing.

• Divergent by Veronica Roth
• This was/is freaking amazing. I love this book!! You meet a girl which all teen girls can relate to. You feel like you grow stronger as she grows stronger. The story is an amzing adventure with even some romance. This one of the top reads for the new year. It is as great as Hunger Games and Twilight.

• Insurgent by Veronica Roth
• I am not as pleased with this book as I am with the first one in this series. This is sequel to Divergent. In this book, we see the continuation of Tris and Four's struggle for justice.

• Ghost of the World by Diane Canwell & Jonathan Sutherland
• This is non-fiction. I just got it for Christmas and I am already more than halfway through it. I find this type of thing to absolutely fascinating.

• Hail Ceasar by Thu-huong Ha
• This book is amazing. I fell in love with Ceasar. I love this book. I bought this book for a dollar. One of my hobbies is to go to a dollar store and buy one the cheap looking romance books that aren't of the adult variety. I have found some of the best books that way. I found this book that way! Check it!

That is all I am going to say about books for now. I can't remember the rest of the books I have read recently. I will give a complete list of all the books I have read recently soon. If you have suggestions, email me at silenceinbeauty@gmail.com.  Let me know what you think of this. If you like this type of thing, let me know and I will do another one.

Technology and I

I have decided to share with you one of my favorite websites of all time. Writing is a passion of mine in case you were unable to tell from my many many blog post. This has lead me to search the internet for a safe place to share my fictional and non-fictional writing. I love writing.
I searched forever for a good site. For a long time, I used a site called www.quizilla.com , but it really started to grow unuseful. It was nice when I first joined, but a lot of not so desirable people joined. It was taken over by anime and fan-fiction. These two genres aren't my favorite.
When I started to become unhappy with this site, I renewed my search for a good site. Then as if by a mircle, I found www.wattpad.com. Wattpad is an amazing site that doesn't allow for your work to be stolen. It also has more a community for readers and writers. This increases its appeal.
Soon I fell in love with the site. Wattpad has a great mobil appilcation as well. I really suggest making an account for this site if you like to read or write. The greatest thing about the site, you ask? It's free! Completely 100% free. I like free things.
Once you have an account, wattpad offers you many cool things to add to your profile. Wattpad offers a cool features called a library. Every story you read or look at you can add to your library. Then you can vote for the stories you like. These votes come in handy for the special contest called the watty awards. I really hope you guys like it. Please check it out. It is a fantastic site that is full of great oppertunities for writer's and readers.

I love this site so I hope you guys enjoy it. If you have questions, comments or suggestions for the blog send them my way. My email is silenceinbeauty@gmail.com. I look forward to reading the comments. Please?????

My First Dance

I remember my first dance with a boy like it was yesterday. Homecoming this year was the first time I ever actually danced with a guy. Dancing with the guy I was with at the time was great. He was sweet and respectful. We swayed back a forth to the slow songs. I was too self-conscious to dance with him to the fast songs, so I didn't. I knew it disappointed him. I hated disappointing him, but I didn't feel comfortable dancing to the fast music.
That night will always have a special meaning to me. The guy I was with that night was my first kiss too, but that is a story for another time. Later that same year he would be the first guy to break my heart. He said so many hurtful things, but I knew that would happen. In high school, no relationship will last forever. It didn't make the hurt any less.
I had actually let myself believe that he and I might actually make it through everything, but that wasn't the case. Eventually we spllit up which was fine.
Moving on was difficult because the memories of the first kiss and the first dance haunted my thought. Everything was fine eventually. My friends let me talk to them about everything. I confessed everything he and I ever did to my parents. They told me they understood and that is when I understood that their love for me, their child, was the only unconditinal love I would experience for right now.

11/30/12

Well between this blog and twitter I will never get my English project done. I am entirely to entertained sharing my opinions of the wonderful world I live. Entirely disenchanted am I with the high school dating scene. I really am overly exhausted by the idea of having someone break my heart again. So now unless someone is really specail I refuse to date. I am of a decent age and have only ever had three boyfriends and with all but one I dated them for a long amount of time.
So rather than just have my heart broken again. I have decided that no one is really going to be missing out on my dating. No one in the world has ever bothered to make me feel special. Therefore I must just be one of those girls who just doesn't have a real active high school social life.
All my life my parents have told me of their glory days in high school. That is what I wanted. To have a boyfriend and friends who went out on the weekends, but no. I have always had the friends that hang out with other people on the weekend and a boyfriend who is constantly making me choose what to talk about. So instead of being stuck with that I am now doomed to singledom. I know the lecture of how no woman needs a man. I know I don't need one. I want to feel wanted. Everyone likes feeling wanted.
For some reason, when I blog I pour my heart and soul into it. I realize that no one is probably reading this, but part of me hopes someone out there is. That my life doesn't feel completly pointless. If this blog let's one girl or guy know that they aren't alone with having these feelings then I would be overjoyed. The chances of the happening are like one in a million though. I am just some girl trying to figure things out in a world that doesn't make any sense.
If you have comments or questions email me at silenceinbeauty@gmail.com. Thanks for your time log on for the next installment of my ever so interesting life soon.

An update

I am sorry to inform you, but I will no longer be adding to this blog regularly. I have had a stroke of genius. My genius has lead me in a new direction. I am gonna make another music blog because you ( my faithful audience) prefer that type of blog from me. So my blog will be my playlist on life or something along those lines. I might keep updating this blog. I'm just not sure yet.